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Post by BROOKE KNIGHT on Oct 7, 2010 21:08:36 GMT -5
Brooke reluctantly pulled away; he hadn’t pulled her close like she had hoped he would. “This is killing me Edward…” she choked, “I never lose those I am interested in… and you are the only person I have truly liked in sixty four years.” She bit her lip once more and looked down, “I’m sorry, I’ll stop it. This isn’t helping you.” She told him and she forced a smile on her face.
She hugged him tightly and sighed, “Just call me, okay? I wouldn’t be able to live if you weren’t happy with your life.” Her fingers played with his hair lightly, she didn’t want to let go, because if she did this would be it. She couldn’t let him know how she felt anymore, so instead she had thought of every word of the American Constitution, hoping he would stay out of her head.
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Post by edwardcullen on Oct 7, 2010 22:17:57 GMT -5
“This is killing me Edward…” “I never lose those I am interested in… and you are the only person I have truly liked in sixty four years.” “I’m sorry, I’ll stop it. This isn’t helping you.” “Just call me, okay? I wouldn’t be able to live if you weren’t happy with your life.”
"Brooke....Won't you stay? Please...Don't leave me...." He didn't want her to leave him. He even let her do what ever she wanted to him if that's what she wanted. He was trying his best to keep her here as long as he could. He didn't wanna see her leave like this. He was right, his feelings for her were true to his word. He was no longer under her control. He gave her the most loving looking look in his eyes then....
"Don't say good bye....Because I know you will be back. You can't tell me not to see through you...When it's not impossible with me. Don't you know that by now? Brooke, please just let me try and love you....Without using your power....Please...Give me a chance...." He was so making it hard for her to just leave like that. He would have to tell Esme why she had come actually that night now. She wanted him...To play with his emotions....But now he changed Brooke's mind. He was not sure what he had done to make her stop using her power over him either... |
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Post by BROOKE KNIGHT on Oct 7, 2010 22:38:15 GMT -5
"Fine... I won't go... not like this anyway..." Brooke told him slowly, "I've only pulled your emotions a few times... never for anything like I did today... I needed to find people that were accepting of me blood drinking ways so when I got her I looked your family up." she was telling him when it had started, "Granted I did use my power that day... Not to get you to want me... but for your entire family to accept me and that is honestly why they liked me." she pulled away from him and looked him in the eyes, "Though I would be lying if I told you I wasn't into you then. I wanted you badly, but it wasn't as easy with you... you never wanted me back..." she told him softly.
"Every other time I used it was to coax you out of times you were thinking about her..." she continued, "You did it too often and you needed to stop wallowing and that was the only way I could stop it and it worked, for the most part... But I could never keep my hold on you, I would always let it go before anything could happen..." she shut her eyes and her brow crinkled slightly, "You are my friend Edward... and until today I tried to keep it that way..."
Golden eyes were exposed once more to look at him directly, "I was wrong to do what I did to you... You deserve someone who can't toy with your emotions" she told him, even though it did hurt her to admit it, 'though you might have trouble with that since all girls can do it... mine are just magnified...' she thought, she couldn't speak anymore, her voice might crack if she did.
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Post by edwardcullen on Oct 7, 2010 23:14:55 GMT -5
"Fine... I won't go... not like this anyway..." Edward looked hopeful then. But he was not gonna press his luck. "I've only pulled your emotions a few times... never for anything like I did today... I needed to find people that were accepting of me blood drinking ways so when I got here I looked your family up." Edward listened quietly as to what she had to really say now....
"Though I would be lying if I told you I wasn't into you then. I wanted you badly, but it wasn't as easy with you... you never wanted me back..." "Every other time I used it was to coax you out of times you were thinking about her..." She was trying to make him forget Bella? That was just not nice. He thought. But he didn't wanna break her any way.....He couldn't break her heart because she didn't have one. But he didn't want to break her spirit if that makes sense....
"You did it too often and you needed to stop wallowing and that was the only way I could stop it and it worked, for the most part... But I could never keep my hold on you, I would always let it go before anything could happen..." "You are my friend Edward... and until today I tried to keep it that way..." He gasped a little. So, she did have true feelings for him after all. She was so not lying either. He could tell by the sound of her voice....She closed her eyes. This was really hard to admit to him. But he was still here right in front of her wasn't he? He had not gotten angry yet either....Was she the one he was truly meant to be with? That question always lingers on his mind....
"I was wrong to do what I did to you... You deserve someone who can't toy with your emotions"
He with a trembling hand reached out and grabbed her hand in his and pulled up her hand to meet his lips...As he kissed the top of her hand so sweetly and softly....His golden eyes stared back into hers.....'though you might have trouble with that since all girls can do it... mine are just magnified...' Edward nodded in agreement...
"You have done wrong then Brooke. Playing some one like you have done would be unforgivable for some people. But, how can I be mad at you? I'm not mad at you. You showed interest in me. That was enough. But, I must ask you this, please will you no longer use your power on me? As you can see now, I'm still here Brooke. I'm not leaving. I truly do love you....We need each other can't you see that? Can't you see that I'm reaching out to you...? I know I'm not Luther....But you love me too....Maybe at first for all the wrong reasons...But, you tried to run away and I wouldn't let you. And I'm still not going to let you...She may still want me...But, Brooke, I'm not good for her. She's safer this way....You might agree with that. You might even agree that you make me happy...You make me smile every time you come over....Don't make me sad by leaving....She's not that important to me any more.....You are..." Maybe this would help Brooke see that he did need her instead of Bella. Edward did love Bella....But that love was fading....Slowly...But it was....He would always help Bella....But, there was a time when you had to accept that this was possibly the best thing for everyone....He then used his other hand and placed it on her side making her come closer to him....."Thank you for telling me the truth...." |
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Post by BROOKE KNIGHT on Oct 7, 2010 23:41:41 GMT -5
"I promise not to use my power on you." Brooke told him quickly, "You don't deserve that." she added. She had to stop the smile from spreading across her face as she was pulled closer, she also had to stop herself from kissing him like she desperately wanted to. "And you aren't Luther... No one could be what Luther was to me, because my feelings aren't the same as they were when I was human. I loved Luther very much... but that was sixty four years ago... when I was human." she told him, "But that being said... If I had the chance to be with Luther again I would be, and I understand that it is that way for you with Bella... You will always love her."
She bit her lip again and shook her head slightly, "But if she does want you back... I just want you to at least tell me before I figure it the hard way... I don't think I could take that after pouring my heart out to you." she told him.
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Post by edwardcullen on Oct 7, 2010 23:59:04 GMT -5
"I promise not to use my power on you." He smiled sweetly at her then...."Thank you...." "You don't deserve that." "And you aren't Luther... No one could be what Luther was to me, because my feelings aren't the same as they were when I was human. I loved Luther very much... but that was sixty four years ago... when I was human."
"But that being said... If I had the chance to be with Luther again I would be, and I understand that it is that way for you with Bella... You will always love her." "But if she does want you back... I just want you to at least tell me before I figure it the hard way... I don't think I could take that after pouring my heart out to you."
"I promise. You will be the first one to know. But for now. Let's just try and pretend that we are meant for each other okay? And the past stays there where it belongs...." He then slowly placed his fore head on hers and smiled....He was no longer nervous about her leaving him....He felt better as he smiled....."And my parents will be happy that I am happy....They won't have to worry about me....If I ever find happiness." He pulled her closer and closer....
"Just don't hesitate to kiss me....If want to kiss me, I'll allow it. If you want me to hold you, I'll allow it. Brooke, I'll never hurt you. Or at least be there when you need me....I think we've got every thing settled...If it's not unnerving for you, I'd like to say, kiss me...." He wanted so badly for her to kiss him again. He felt so alive when she did that. And this time it would be for real......"For real...."
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Post by BROOKE KNIGHT on Oct 8, 2010 0:16:02 GMT -5
Brooke wrapped her arms around his neck, entangling her fingers in his soft hair. "I'm always here for you, too, Edward, even if you go back to her I will still be here for you." With the invitation to kiss him came about she was semi reluctant, only because she didn't want to get hurt. In the end her feelings for him won her over. Her lips met his and she couldn't help but smile slightly, this kiss wasn't a forced kiss or a pity kiss, he had asked her to kiss him and the fact he did want her made her skin tingle. His touch sent sparks dancing over her skin and she loved the feeling of it.
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Post by edwardcullen on Oct 8, 2010 0:31:46 GMT -5
"I'm always here for you, too, Edward, even if you go back to her I will still be here for you."
His skin tingled the minute she wrapped her arms around his neck. And he smiled as well when she did that. They would be there for each other no matter what happened in the future. This was good. At least they would both have a place to fall if they needed to. The way she just looked at him in the eyes made him get more excited. More happy...
But when she did as he asked, he felt like he could fly to the moon and back. As her lips touched his, he knew this was it. This was the real first kiss they would ever share. As she wrapped her arms around his neck and played with his hair, he wrapped his own arms to her back...And let her body just lay on his....Then his eyes closed for the first time....For real. He hoped by now that she would see that he was not being in control of anyone. Not even Bella could stop him from kissing Brooke. This was a new start for the both of them....Edward actually has a reason to keep living....After about a five minute kiss he pulled away from it and looked into her eyes....
"Come on....Let's start this over shall we?" He led her back to his couch and sat down on it pulling her down to sit down as well..... |
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Post by BROOKE KNIGHT on Oct 8, 2010 0:46:13 GMT -5
Brooke smiled as she sat down beside him, she was quite thrilled over what was happening after her feelings for him had began to grow since she first met him she had begged for this, but always shot herself down. She no longer had to stop herself with him, though her would probably shoot her down the second Bella looked his way she didn't care. Luther was her past and her future was undecided but her moment there with Edward was her present and that was all that mattered right now. He wanted her as badly as she wanted him and that wasn't going to change any time soon.
She looked him in the eye and sighed happily, "Thank you for not letting me leave." she said softly before her lips met his again. One hand wound it's fingers through his while the other set on his cheek. She suddenly pulled away, "Sorry, I couldn't help myself..." she told him sheepishly.
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Post by edwardcullen on Oct 8, 2010 0:58:41 GMT -5
"Thank you for not letting me leave." He couldn't help himself from smiling...."You're welcome..." He said sweetly to her....
She then placed her hand on his cheek again. And that gave him a bit of a blush. As he looked down..."Sorry, I couldn't help myself..."
But he at once looked back up at her with another smile...."No need to be sorry darling....I liked it..." He then gave her the pleasure back and rubbed a few knuckles down one of her cheeks as well....This was his romantic side....He was showing her a lot more affection now and this was not fake. He was really showing her affection. He knew he could never replace Luther for her. Just as she could never replace Bella for him....But they had each other right here. Right now. That's all that mattered.....
"What do you wanna do for the rest of the day?" The possibilities were endless...He was open to any thing. And that meant any thing. What ever she wanted to do. As long as they were together. He then saw a strand of her her curl fall over her cheek and he brushed it back behind her ear for her...."Don't be afraid....Tell me any thing...." He then moved to a new position on the couch....To where his head was laying in her lap and he was looking up at her and rested his arms on his stomach....And just relaxed....All the while trying not to take his eyes off her.... |
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Post by BROOKE KNIGHT on Oct 8, 2010 1:10:00 GMT -5
Brooke raised an eyebrow slightly, as if he didn't already know what she wanted. She wanted him to tear her clothes off and do things she knew Edward would never do to her, not now anyway. This committing thing was new to her, she had only committed her life to Luther after all and that only ended in his death. Since being a vampire she wasn't really one that people really saw that much out of, just the slut, and halting her ways would be hard for her and she knew that. Sixty-four years of sexual habits didn't just disappear over night after all.
For Edward she would try to change, at least she would stop her promiscuity as long as they were together. She grabbed one of his hands and intertwined their fingers together. "This is fine, just being with you is fine." She told him as her other hand played with the hair on top of his head gently.
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Post by edwardcullen on Oct 8, 2010 1:24:34 GMT -5
"This is fine, just being with you is fine." He could tell by the look in her eyes that she wanted more than that. And he wanted the same thing. But not too soon any way. She was going through the change of habits...And if he had done what she wanted, then she would never change her old habits. And he wanted to help her so badly he could taste it. He then smiled as she grabbed his hand in hers and his fingers intertwined with her fingers...They actually matched. Maybe if Edward had not met Bella then met Brooke he would be asking her to marry him instead of Bella...But, for now, that would so have to wait! If Bella chooses Jacob over him, then there would nothing to stop him from asking Brooke's hand in marriage. Her grabbing his so made him think about that.....
"Really? Are you sure this is fine?" He wanted her to be comfortable....And not nervous around him....He was so a gentleman with her. He was spoiling her. And she would know it. He looked up and saw her looking down in his eyes. "Remember, it's hard to keep some thing from me...." He said teasingly....But he was not going any further than that. He wanted to see what she would really do. She had him where she wanted him....And yet she still had not done what she really wants. What they both want. But would they be ready for that? He knew she was....But he wanted to wait a little while before they did any thing like make love. At least he didn't have to worry about getting her pregnant or giving her some kind of disease...She was just like him....But the question in his deeper mind was would she feel any thing he gave her if they ever reached that level? He's never made love to vampire....
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Post by BROOKE KNIGHT on Oct 8, 2010 1:43:06 GMT -5
"If we do more than this I may lose control, dear..." Brooke told him slowly, "And no matter how much I want to lose that control I know I shouldn't... So until the time I can make sure I don't lose myself in my old habits this is fine." She finished, her voice was soft and sweet. This change would be hard for her and she hoped he would understand and not get jealous if she ever slipped up, though she hoped she never would.
"And I know it's hard to keep things from you..." She muttered, "But at least you will know when you have to stop me before i get the time to react to it." she shrugged lightly, "No big deal, I can abstain form it..." she finally decided.
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Post by edwardcullen on Oct 8, 2010 11:02:23 GMT -5
"If we do more than this I may lose control, dear..." "And no matter how much I want to lose that control I know I shouldn't... So until the time I can make sure I don't lose myself in my old habits this is fine." "And I know it's hard to keep things from you..." "But at least you will know when you have to stop me before i get the time to react to it." "No big deal, I can abstain form it..."
He smiled as he looked up at her. "Okay....You're right anyway. I want to help you in any way I can sweet heart....We need a plan though. If we are going to help each other. I need to help you with your self control....And you need me for my emotion ordeal.....If a problem ever arises he need to have our number on speed dial ready for each other....What'd ya say about that....?" He sat up then and grabbed a note book off his shelf and took out a black pen...."We give each other our cell phone number and that way we can keep in touch when we are apart...."
He quickly wrote down his number and tore it out of the note book and placed the paper in her hand. He hoped she would agree with that at least....Maybe this would help her a lot....He just wanted this to work out for the both of them....He closed her hand when placed the paper inside it and pulled it up and kissed the top of it again....As he never left eye contact with her.....
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Post by BROOKE KNIGHT on Oct 8, 2010 11:35:20 GMT -5
"Okay, it works for me." Brooke told him softly. She almost blushed when his lips touched her skin. The tightness of her jeans didn't allow for her to put the paper in her her pocket, so instead it was folded and put in her bra, giving him an apologetic look for it but there was no where else to put it and she wouldn't lose in there. She took the notebook from him delicately wrote her number across the page before handing it back. She kept her eye contact the entire time as well with a small smile on her face.
She brushed her hand over his cheek before she kissed him lightly, 'Sorry...' she thought as she kissed him, 'But I promise to behave.' she continued to kiss him gently as she mentally apologized to him.
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