just want held (Olivia)

[grace]

when you're gone
my colors fade to gray

Little Grace, a four year old Hybrid had been off on her own for a few days now. She didn't leave the house unless needed or come out of her room unless needed. She would come out to eat, tell her mommy she loves her, and nothing more. She hadn't been playing with her toys as much either....just laid around, being lazy. She knew her mommy wanted to know what was going on, but had a hard time saying anything down to a word. She had put herself in a bubble of quiet. Eventually, Olivia would become tired of asking and just tell her she needs to speak up...at least that's how she feels is what will happen.

None of this would have happened if that girl didn't go nuts on her. Grace couldn't figure out why a four year old being nice was scary at all...She figured it was because of her eyes and that she's a Hybrid, but that couldn't be it do to her living with the Cullens. There could be something she's missing though, however, Grace wasn't worried about it to much, it only bugged her. Ana had brung back memories of her past...It wasn't Ana who had made her think about it, but the situation that made them flood in unexpectedly...crushing all the happiness she had found... She also knew the girl didn't care which made it worse on her feelings.

Sighing, Grace moved from her toys to her bed to lay down. She placed her head on her pillow and began to cry silently. Not near as hard as she had before, she knew she had scared Olivia the first time...After Grace woke up that day she was at home, on her bed, with her mother right there waiting for her with food. She had said nothing to her but 'thank you' and 'i would like to sleep now' other than that she remembers nothing else. The day after Grace appeared one time from her room to ask for chicken nuggets.

She whipped her tears from her face then laid on her side curled up in a little ball. Footsteps were heard walking by the door. "Mommy?" She said in a soft, pathetic little tone. "Can you come here please?" All she wanted was to be held, that's good progress considering she hasn't done much of anything.
And she really didn't want to tell her mommy about her past but knew she would have to sooner or later...She knew it was eating at Olivia's thoughts and emotions...

[OLIVIA THORNE]

The last few days have been torture on her. Ever since she found Grace in the company of Edward and the human girl named Anastasia, she had not been the bubbly self she always was. It ate her away inside to think that there was something wrong with her baby and there was nothing she could do about it, atleast not until she told her what was bothering you. Every day when she would check on her and gave her her food, she would ask if she was okay. But Grace would just shake her head and take the plate. Normally Olivia would of fought the issue, demanding she tell her what was the matter but she couldn't bring herself to do so. Instead she just nodded her head and walked out. Olivia did not know what else to do, she had never been a mother before this and had little practice before she became a vampire. She tried to comfort her but failed miserably.

Today felt no different as Olivia walked down the long hallway to Grace's room with a tray full of food in her hands. Blood and chicken nuggets to be exact...her favorite. She didn't try to bombarded her with questions and worrisome eyes for the last two days and figured she would try it again. It was her goal to find out what was bothering her daughter. Upon reaching her door she stopped in front of it, her eyes piercing the door like a bullet. She hesitated for a moment and stood perfectly still. Listening close she could hear the sound of whimpering and crying coming from behind the wooden door. Her heart sunk deep within her stomach and her body grew numb with pain. She closed her eyes for a moment, feeling as though she wanted to cry herself even though it wasn't possible. "Mommy?" a soft voice was heard from behind the door. "Can you come here please?" Her eyes quickly opened and her ears perked up. For the first time in days she was actually calling for her. A hint of excitement took over her as she hurried through the door and closed it behind her. Walking over to the bed she set the tray down on the night stand and sat on the bed beside her. "Yes baby." she said softly as she gently touched her back with the palm of her hand. She would do anything for her princess just for her to be happy...even if it meant the death of another.

[grace]

Grace watched the door open and shut again. She didn't even know it was time to eat yet...the day seemed so slow and drug out. Olivia sat on her bed with her hand on her back, she couldn't hold it in anymore...This time she wanted to be held. "Yes baby." Grace took a deep breath in...then let it out slowly. Her eyes started to whelp up in tears. "I don't know what to do." She said holding back the tears that her voice wasn't hiding.

She quickly moved from her laying down, curled up position and curled up on her Mommy's lap. She bawled, tearing flowing down her face like a stream. Grace buried her face on her Mommy's shirt hoping she wouldn't be upset about getting her shirt wet....She stayed that way for a few minutes letting Olivia comfort her and calming down little by little...Once the tears were a few seconds apart from one another she lifted her head and sniffled.

"Mommy," She started with another sniffle....It was most likely the only way to make herself feel better, to explain. "When I was born...Men took me away. My mom was kept *sniffle* in a building *sniffle* were they experimented on her," Pauses looking at her look lap. "When I was born...I killed her because I'm stronger than her...They took her away and didn't let me go to the burial...*sniffle* They kept me in a room with a bed and a tv...No toys *sniffle* The charted my growth *sniffle* Sometime they would take me into different rooms for different things...Like seeing how easily I bruise." Grace's tears started flowing more faster.

"They had a room for experiments...In their they put massive amounts of....meth, heroine, cocaine..and other many drugs *sniffle* in my system...usually by needle...I had a shock collar on so if I didn't listen they would shock me....They did many experiments and testing...They *sniffle* even cut me to see how long it would take to heal" Grace started having a hard time speaking by this point, but there was no turning back. "Finally I tore the shocker off...And killed them one by one *sniffle* Then I set the place on fire in case I missed someone hiding...I only have one picture of my real mom...Everything else, all pictures, records, test results, the people, all gone....I did it so I was never alive...so they couldn't come back for me...." Grace stopped talking and started bawling again, face in her buried in her Mommy's neck.

[OLIVIA THORNE]

"I don't know what to do."

[/i] the crying child said as she buried her head in Olivia's shirt and took a seat on her lap. Her eyes were red and puffy, her nose and cheeks were now red instead of pink as a result of days of crying. The sound of a erratic thumping rang in her ears as the girls heart beat pounded in her chest. For the last few days Olivia hadn't even been able the think properly or attend work which was putting a strain on her relationship with Aro. But it had seemed that the young hybrid has a strong lingering affect on the red eyed vampire, whatever she felt Olivia did too. The bloody thirsty killer was now soft hearted and tamed and has been ever since she stumbled upon the child in the playground. "Mommy," Her voice was slightly muffled by the sniffling and random breaths of air. "When I was born...Men took me away. My mom was kept *sniffle* in a building *sniffle* were they experimented on her," She started to say. Olivia's mind was over run by thoughts and idea's as to what Grace would say next. But no matter what it was none of the possibilities seemed pretty. "When I was born...I killed her because I'm stronger than her...They took her away and didn't let me go to the burial...*sniffle* They kept me in a room with a bed and a tv...No toys *sniffle* The charted my growth *sniffle* Sometime they would take me into different rooms for different things...Like seeing how easily I bruise." The more she spoke the tinier the pieces were from her heart being torn apart piece by piece by the words that floated out of her little mouth. At first she felt sorrow and completely sadness but now the small burning pain was turning into a blinding rage. And it only grew as she continued to speak. "They had a room for experiments...In their they put massive amounts of....meth, heroine, cocaine..and other many drugs *sniffle* in my system...usually by needle...I had a shock collar on so if I didn't listen they would shock me....They did many experiments and testing...They *sniffle* even cut me to see how long it would take to heal" Grace's tears were now pouring out of her faster than before, her voice was shaky and almost hard to understand. But Olivia could hear her words perfectly fine through the whimpering and sniffling and from what she was hearing so far she wasn't any happier than before. How could anyone do that to a innocent child? Human or hybrid, even Olivia couldn't bring herself to personally hurt a small child. The overwhelming feeling of needing to protect her baby kicked in as thoughts of how she was going to make the scientists pay for what they did to her. The fire inside Olivia was hot and would burn anyone that touched her. She used all her strength to hold back the anger that had replaced the once docile nature from before, she didn't want to scare Grace anymore than she already was. But she couldn't help but feel threatened, not by Grace, but by the fact that someone would treat her baby that way. "Finally I tore the shocker off...And killed them one by one *sniffle* Then I set the place on fire in case I missed someone hiding...I only have one picture of my real mom...Everything else, all pictures, records, test results, the people, all gone....I did it so I was never alive...so they couldn't come back for me...." Even if that was true...if she did happen to get all of the scientists, that didn't mean Olivia wouldn't try to find them anyway. She didn't care how it was anywhere else in the world, but in the South if you mess with a woman's babies...you were doomed to a slow and painful death. Stroking Grace's hair she let out a soft sign and closed her eyes. "Shh...calm down. Everything will be okay, Mommy wont let anything happen to you ever again." she whispered softly, slightly using her power to try and calm her down. "You were brave to do what you did and I'm proud of you, baby." she tried to comfort her in any way possible. [/blockquote][/blockquote]

[grace]

Grace had a grip on her mothers shirt with both her small hands as she cried. She couldn't believe that she told someone that much information as to what had happened to her nor could she believe she didn't just get up and run away. No, the girl stayed right where she was letting her mom give her comfort. At least now, her mommy wouldn't be so worried about what was wrong...now the only question in Graces mind was....Does she think of me different?
"Shh...calm down. Everything will be okay, Mommy wont let anything happen to you ever again." The words spoke to her like the would anything other little girl with her mother, she would start calming down now that she knew Olivia wasn't just going to leave her. "You were brave to do what you did and I'm proud of you, baby." Grace sniffled, "Thank you mommy....I don't want to ever go through that again." She had calmed down now although the tears were still there and flowing. "Now you know why I don't like humans very much....mostly scientists and men....and men scientists." Grace made herself laugh and sniffle at the same time causing her to hiccup. She laughed at herself.

Finally she moved from her moms lap to grab the glass of blood then went back to her lap. She took a big drink of it before looking at her mom. "I hate that when I get upset I need more blood." She told her taking another huge drink...then another..."So...you're not going to let them come for me? Promise? Not ever?" Her small, soft red eyes big and looking into her mothers.