A Time For Confessions ((Carlisle Closed))

[edwardcullen]

Edward was alone in his bed room he had a lot to think about. He wanted to spend this time alone. As he walked back and forth in his room he finally stopped and leaned his fore arm against the glass and looked out his window and sighed. What was the point in staying here at the Cullen house when most of them didn't understand why he made the decision he had made for joining the Volturi? No one understood. Well, his wife understood. She might be the only one that did. Besides his parents. Well, he knew his parents understood everything. But was probably disappointed at the decision that he had made...

Classical music played low in the back ground. He was not expecting to see any one today. He wanted time to himself. But he knew that hardly ever lasts. He wanted time to himself to write more in his journal today about the past events. He some times wondered if she ever thought about him any more? He wanted so badly to go see if she was alright. At least alright...At least Brooke was not here right now...He would not get the stare. She knew when his mind wondered back to Isabella Swan. Some times she would just let it go....He couldn't help himself, Bella was his first love...He would always love her. Even though she was the one that broke up with him he was not so sure if she meant what she said....But he knew he could not go see her. The Volturi gave him orders. If he wanted to keep her heart in her chest, he would leave her alone. But as he was alone they could not stop him from thinking about her....He loves his wife....Why was he constantly being pulled back to Bella?

[wendy]

Carlisle wasn't in the best of moods which was out of the norm. He had a lot on his mind since Edward had been spending time back home. Things didn't settle well at all with him. Carlisle knew that this was Edwards last night there and things had to be said. Exiting his office, he headed down the hall to Edwards room and knocked on the door.

He knew Edward was in there and opened the door to see Edward leaning to the window. " Edward, son, we need to talk." So much for being alone, if that was what Edward wished. It was going to be one hell of a long night for the both of them. Stepping into the room, he walked over to Edward and gave a squeeze to his shoulder. " Sit, lets talk."

He let go of his shoulder and turned around to head over to the couch and lowered down to sit.

[edwardcullen]

Edward was still looking out the window. And sensed his father's presence before he even knocked on the door. " Edward, son, we need to talk." Edward looked over from where he was as he looked back at his father. " Sit, lets talk." That was an order the way his father said that , Edward knew there was no getting out of it. His father wanted to talk. And when Carlisle let go of Edward's shoulder Edward took his seat at his own couch and turned off the music with his remote that was on the arm of the couch....

Edward could tell he already would most not likely like this conversation. Just the way he could tell from his father's voice. He sat down on the couch and placed his palm on the side of his face as he rested his elbow on the arm of the couch and he sat all relaxed out......He was trying to take advantage of the time he could rest....Because once he had to go back to Italy there was no rest....He did not even need rest and here he was......Acting as though he deserved it! Carlisle would see what was going on with his own son all he had to do is look at him Edward and he could tell....Not having a lot of time off was changing the son Carlisle came to love.....Edward hated every single bit of it. He wanted to have his what he called normal life back....

"About what?" There was a change in Edward's voice as well.....

[wendy]

Carlisle frowned once his son came to sit down with him. He didn't know why he had done this, ask for a talk with Edward. Edward had changed. Carlisle could see it plan as day. He wasn't by any means oblivious to this. Carlisle didn't speak right away and almost appeared to be thinking over his words closely within his head.

After several minutes he spoke. Words flowed quite freely. " Edward, why? Why did you leave your family to turn to the Volturi. You knew well we would of protected you and Bella. No one understands this. No one is happy with your decision. And what you've done to Esme.. I can only imagine she shows she is alright, but she isn't. She thinks of you as I do. Our son. I brought you into immortality and .." He did not want to finish, having to say he left him - upset him greatly.

"You have this woman Brooke now.. but when I walked into the room just a few minutes ago, I know I seen you thinking. I would bet my own very life on it, that you were not thinking of Brooke, but Bella."

Carlisle felt if Edward wasn't acting so immature and rash as he had with these decisions, he would of seen that Bella was his life. His soul mate and that he had done the unthinkable. Carlisles head lowered a little as he looked down to his hands to think.

" You know I love you Edward, as one of my own blood." He looked back to Edward now. " Is what you got in Italy as great as what you had here? I don't like these changes I see in you. Not one bit, Edward." For Carlisle being such a compassionate man, he felt betrayed in many ways by his son. And to be honest, he didn't enjoy that feeling one bit. Perhaps with him understanding why Edward had done what he did, he would be able to get others of his family to understand? Perhaps.

" I made a promise to your mother and I can't help but feel I've broken it with these actions of yours unfortunately. " He knew saying such a thing might hurt Edward but at the moment, such things had to be said. Like it or not. He continued to look at Edward, as if to search his gaze to figure out his reasoning.

[edwardcullen]

" Edward, why? Why did you leave your family to turn to the Volturi. You knew well we would of protected you and Bella. No one understands this. No one is happy with your decision. And what you've done to Esme.. I can only imagine she shows she is alright, but she isn't. She thinks of you as I do. Our son. I brought you into immortality and .."

"Because I wanted to see if I could handle that situation on my own without you guys....I failed...." That was not true. He wanted them all there that horrible night. Aro scared him far beyond any way he thought possible. And that is the part no one understands.....But Carlisle would see right through his son that he was lying. The things was, Edward was angry. No one came for his help when he really needed it....And he was forced to make that decision on his own....He knew he let the two people that meant the most to him down. He was not the same as he was before. Since Bella down right broke what was suppose to be his heart. After all he did for her....Damn her....


"You have this woman Brooke now.. but when I walked into the room just a few minutes ago, I know I seen you thinking. I would bet my own very life on it, that you were not thinking of not Brooke, but Bella."

Edward moved uneasy in his seat with the very mention of Bella made him uneasy. "Please.....Don't say her name..." ((Bella's^^)).....Edward remained there in his seat thought. As his father went on talking....

"You know I love you Edward, as one of my own blood." That made Edward breath in his mouth as he looked down..."Is what you got in Italy as great as what you had here? I don't like these changes I see in you. Not one bit, Edward." "No father it's not." But that answer came in his mind. Edward couldn't let his father know that he was regretting the decision now. He met Brooke, he married her. He wanted a new life with his wife in Italy so bad he could taste it. There was just nothing here really holding him back Well, it was actually. He was here with Edward. The very man that saved his life...

"I made a promise to your mother and I can't help but feel I've broken it with these actions of yours unfortunately. " The thought of his mother....One memory flashed in Edward's mind about her. It was one night when he was around 7 and she was wearing a beautiful gown as she was about to go out with her husband for a romantic night. He could remember her twirling around in it. She looked so beautiful...."I'm sorry..." Edward finally said as his normal self. For a split second there was the Edward that everyone knew. All because of the mentioning of his mother made him release his tight muscles and just let go....For a second....Too bad Esme couldn't see him....But at least his father could..."And about that night....I lied...I wanted you there....I was such a jerk to think I could handle some thing like that...I want my father back. But now that even seems to so far away...." Edward was hurt to. By what Carlisle had said....But he couldn't get angry at his father. Carlisle was the only father he had since he was changed. His real father had already died....And Edward couldn't help but feel he let his biological parents down...They all meant the world to him....

[wendy]

Carlisle sighed. It was the only thing that came to him to do at that exact moment. He was at a loss for words, for he could sort of understand why Edward did things the way he had now, he was trying to be a man and handle things on his own. He couldn't reprimand him for such actions. A man had to make such choices in life, whether they turned out good or for the bad.

Again Carlisle was silent while he thought. No words came to his mind to utter out loud. He lifted his gaze from the CD rack in Edwards room to land them on Edward.

This Brooke crossed his mind. Carlisle didn't feel the woman was Edwards one but what could he have done about that. It was something Edward had to figure out on his own. " Is this thing you have with Brooke and this marriage to her, be honest with me Edward, for I will never repeat it. Why would you marry her if you know that inside of you belongs to another? That is betraying you both, all three of you for that matter in the worst way. I'm sure you realize that. I'm sure its hit you hard being back here in Forks hmm?"

There was another pause to his conversation then. " I see Bella from time to time. She is alright you know. If you miss her, why don't you write her.. Let her know you are sorry, maybe you can move on from then, and be with this Brooke on a better level where your mind isn't preoccupied. Best be Brooke treats you well always too, Edward. I don't want you unhappy. I'm sure you've had enough distraught lately."

Was Carlisle giving compassion for a son he was losing? Perhaps. One thing was clear, no matter what, even if he didn't agree with Edwards actions, he'd still love Edward and think of him as his son. " You will always have your home here. Your family here." Rosa on the other hand, he pictured her not giving him the trust she once had, but eh, it could be rebuilt at that time, right? He hoped so.

He leaned over and gave Edward a fatherly type hug. " Keep in contact with me son when you return to the Volturi. Promise me that."

[edwardcullen]

" Is this thing you have with Brooke and this marriage to her, be honest with me Edward, for I will never repeat it. Why would you marry her if you know that inside of you belongs to another? That is betraying you both, all three of you for that matter in the worst way. I'm sure you realize that. I'm sure its hit you hard being back here in Forks hmm?" " I see Bella from time to time. She is alright you know. If you miss her, why don't you write her.. Let her know you are sorry, maybe you can move on from then, and be with this Brooke on a better level where your mind isn't preoccupied. Best be Brooke treats you well always too, Edward. I don't want you unhappy. I'm sure you've had enough distraught lately."

"I'm not the one that needs to be sorry....She left me if you plainly remember....And yes what I have with Brooke is what I want more than any thing. Why are you constantly on me about Bella any way....? She's obviously picked the one she wants to be with...She's moved on....So have I...Or at least every time I try to move on one of you remind me of her...Why not just let me be happy for once...Brooke is my wife and she will always be there for me...No matter what decisions I make...." Edward hated being mean but he was about to get very angry with his father. But Edward was trying as hard as he could not to. Especially it being his last night here....

"You will always have your home here. Your family here." "Keep in contact with me son when you return to the Volturi. Promise me that." Edward looked at his father...."Always..." He said low...

That hug was some thing he missed. A father hugging him....Even though Edward did not show that part of him on the out side when Carlisle lightly hugged him....Edward did miss the father sitting next to him...He could plainly remember when it was just him, Carlisle & Esme....Before the others....That's what he missed the most...But, Edward knew why Carlisle had saved his brothers and sisters....Because that was how his father was. He loved helping people....

"You're my father...You can't be proud of some one who has broken the Treaty we had with the wolves for so many years...This is why I am leaving Forks all together....Brooke decided she wants me alive rather than dead....Knowing Jacob the next time won't go down so easily between me and him...Just promise me, if you do see him...let him know I've left Forks...He has nothing to worry about...He can live a happy life with Bella...I won't hurt her any more....That's a promise I intend to keep....."

[wendy]

Carlisle released Edward of the hug and just stared at him. There was a flash of disqust and anger flash through his gaze at his son. He couldn't believe how he had just been spoken to. Last he checked he was the one who was older. Wiser. The one filled with more wisdom, wisdom that most vampires dreamed of having.

Carlisle pushed up to stand and shook his head at Edward. " I don't know you anymore Edward and that is stunning. You are not the one I took under my wings and taught the rights and wrongs of our world. You spoke in angry tones to me, yet, wish me to do your dirty work for something you did? No. How dare you Edward. Anything that has happened or will happen with Jakob and whomever is on your hands. Not mine. I did not break the treaty. One mind you I swore to. You broke it, you failed, you live with it."

Yes, Carlisle was pissed and that was something that never happened. The last time he got upset? Well, it was too long to remember. The whole time he spoke to Edward though, he kept his calm, wishing he hadn't spoken of being there for him just moments before to have been spoken to like he was a mere speck of dirt that is trampled on.

Carlisle walked towards the door. Opening it then turning to briefly look to his son. " You are foolish and have much to learn. Your lack of knowledge of our life will kill you Edward and this time I won't save you or be there to think of such a thing. Safe travels." He turned and simply left to head to his office. The door shut in his wake and as he lowered to sit in his chair and relax, his stared out the window and lost himself in thoughts.

Just a few years back, he wouldn't have thought he would be sitting here like this disappointed. Feeling as if he failed in ways that he didn't want to say with Edward. His friendship with the Volturi he even questioned. Aro taking his son. What kind of sick joke was that? Something wasn't right. Something was way off.

[edwardcullen]

"I don't know you anymore Edward and that is stunning. You are not the one I took under my wings and taught the rights and wrongs of our world. You spoke in angry tones to me, yet, wish me to do your dirty work for something you did? No. How dare you Edward. Anything that has happened or will happen with Jakob and whomever is on your hands. Not mine. I did not break the treaty. One mind you I swore to. You broke it, you failed, you live with it." " You are foolish and have much to learn. Your lack of knowledge of our life will kill you Edward and this time I won't save you or be there to think of such a thing. Safe travels."

After his father had left all Edward could do at that point was push himself up off the couch and smash some thing made of glass across the wall....He was just kidding himself....He never thought for a split second that his father would disown him....After what he promised Edward's mother...? But had Edward actually come to the breaking point? Had he lost the one man he knew could always be there for him? Did Esme think the same thing? She spent so much time with her husband...It was not hard for Edward to realize that they all were beginning to dislike him....He was out numbered here....The very family he was loving so much was turning against him....

From the looks of things....It seemed like that....Edward crouched on the floor as he rubbed his hands roughly through his hair a few times as he groaned out anger....Why had he said what he had said...? Edward was so angry right now...But he knew he couldn't leave this place being on bad terms with his father....The question was would his father allow him to even be around him...Edward stood up....He glanced at the door a couple of times....

Finally he just owned up to it and opened the door and left his room and left to see his father again....He walked to Carlisle's study....And saw the door was open. Edward didn't bother knocking...Carlisle would know he was there any way...."I'm sorry..." He apologized....As he looked out the window in front of him....If Edward could cry he would have already done that...

[wendy]

There was one thing that crossed Carlisles mind while he sat there at his desk and looked out the window. It was him trying to figure out why the family seemed to be falling apart as of lately. Had he failed somewhere? His elbow came up and propped on the arm of the chair and head sank into his palm. He had this overwhelming feeling, although he couldn't place why, things were only going to get worse before they got better.

A sigh slipped out of his mouth and just as he shifted in his position to sit upright, he head Edward. For a moment he kept facing the window and looking out it. As much as things was upsetting for him and hurt him with the decisions that Edward was making, he couldn't stay mad at him, could he?

He spun the chair around, eyes focus in on Edward. He might of asked if he was sincere in that apology and if he was going to yell at him again two minutes later, but he could tell that Edward was finally being truthful. Carlisle gave him a soft nod of his head.

" I forgive you Edward. Don't talk to me though in that way again. Alright?" It was all Carlisle could say before he let it go for good. Carlisle wasn't one to dwell on things for two long.

The thought of Brooke entered his head and he tried not to frown as he spoke of her. " I will be spending a quiet evening with Esme, but I would like some time before you leave either tonight when I get home or in the morning with you and Brooke. Is that okay?" For the sake of Edward, whether it went good or bad, he would try and give this woman a chance.

[edwardcullen]

"I forgive you Edward. Don't talk to me though in that way again. Alright?" His father didn't have to point out the stress he was under. Edward saw it all over his father's face. It must have been very difficult to see your family fall apart before your very eyes. But Edward tried to stay with in the circle as long as he could at least until some one ranted him out. And that first person was indeed Rosalie. The girl was no mystery about how she felt about Edward. Edward knew she hated him now. He even has heard the word traitor in there some where at some point...

But when Carlisle said he forgave Edward, that made Edward feel a lot better. But he couldn't help but wonder if his father meant it. But Edward would not nag on about a touchy subject. " I will be spending a quiet evening with Esme, but I would like some time before you leave either tonight when I get home or in the morning with you and Brooke. Is that okay?" Edward looked up at him..."Okay. I think we can do that." Edward knew he just knew that his father was shamed of him...He was not the same boy he saved in 1918. But Edward never thought that there would some thing this big to break him away from his father like this. He had to admit he was a bit scared. Because he had no idea what the Volturi had planned for him when he returned back to Italy.

"I don't want to go back...." Edward confessed in a low tone to his father as he looked down. Which was true. Edward didn't wanna leave again. But he knew that this was his fault. All because some one threatened Bella's life....The thought of what Carlisle said...That they would have helped him.....Edward was beginning to regret in at least trying to call them for help...He was with a Volturi guard at all times. And Edward doubted that they would have let him use that cell for call of help...."He threatened Bella's life...I would've said no if he had not threatened her life...." Edward walked over to the front of the desk and placed his palms on the desk. Hopefully Carlisle would believe him....

[wendy]

Carlisle listened to Edward on how he said he hadn't wanted to go back to the Volturi. He knew he was messing with fire here and didn't enjoy this one bit. After a long pause he sighed and spoke low to him. " Remain here and trust in your family then Edward. We will protect you in any way we can, you know this. You belong here with us."

Good god, he did not like the sound of this. Again the question came to his thoughts of why Edward had gone off to search for help in the Volterra and not come to Carlisle. Was it that he didn't have faith in Carlisle for something like this? As much as he wanted to not think it was that, he was beginning to.

"Words are simply words, Edward. Can't you see that? Aro, Marcus, and Caius use words first to get what they want. They are manipulative. Not only that, you should of never thought of going to them for help. Why you would consider them an option is beyond me. You are not me, you do not hold the slight power that I do with them. Or is this all coming down to you being immature and stubborn? " Carlisle sighed. God he wished none of this had happened. It was taking a toll on him and on all of his family.

With this latest event with Ana, it was the last thing he really wanted on his plate at the moment. Ana.. Which reminded him, he had to get the ball moving on that and find a way to spend time with Esme through all this.

Carlisle pushed up and glanced to his son. " Can you postpone your departure for another week? We need you here, see what you can do, alright?" Carlisle glanced to the door and back to Edward. " I have to attend to some things Edward. I'll find you soon. Don't wander off too far, alright?"

With that being said, Edward turned and headed out of the room.

[edwardcullen]

"Remain here and trust in your family then Edward. We will protect you in any way we can, you know this. You belong here with us." "Words are simply words, Edward. Can't you see that? Aro, Marcus, and Caius use words first to get what they want. They are manipulative. Not only that, you should of never thought of going to them for help. Why you would consider them an option is beyond me. You are not me, you do not hold the slight power that I do with them. Or is this all coming down to you being immature and stubborn?" "Can you postpone your departure for another week? We need you here, see what you can do, alright?" "I have to attend to some things Edward. I'll find you soon. Don't wander off too far, alright?"

"I'll see what I can do..."

He took every thing his father said in. He hated having done what he did behind his father's back. But there was no way around it. He knew the Volturi Guards wouldn't allow him to call any of his family. The question for Edward was, where were they all when this happened in the first place....He knew Emmett and Rosalie were probably not in Forks...But the others did not have an excuse not to be there for their family member as they said they would be. Edward was beginning to believe himself that the family was falling apart...But what could he do? It seems that this all started when he fell in love with a certain beautiful human. That he has not yet to get out of his head. All Bella said was that a lie too...? Was he nothing to her? He had to know that for certain soon...He would make his appearance to her again....

And as bad as he hated himself for being selfish...He wanted to make sure she was really sincere about breaking up the love they had that was once so strong....Edward was glad he was the only one that could read minds...But he could not read Bella's. And that was enough to frustrate him...He wished he could that way he knew exactly what she was wanting....Edward knew Brooke would not like him thinking about Bella. "I've got some thing to do that will keep me here longer I believe...." The question is, would Jacob Black allow Bella to be with in ten feet of him....? Edward doubted. But he knew Bella would meet him if he asked her kindly enough. He had to be sure that Bella was truly over him as he had to make sure he was truly over her. But he was not about to tell his father what he had planned.