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Post by edwardcullen on Oct 19, 2010 0:34:50 GMT -5
"Morning love." Edward smiled as he heard her sweet, sweet voice from behind him. "Morning beautiful..."
"I hope your night was as good as mine." Edward laughed as she wrapped her arms around towards his chest and he placed his hand on one of her arms as they rested on his chest and rubbed his hand down it....Her skin was so smooth even in the morning...."It was better..." He turned around and faced her as he smiled and placed a gentle kiss on her lips....And placed his fore head on hers now as he grabbed both her hands in his....And looked down. "Brooke....Will be just as exciting when we are married? Cause I don't want it to stop....I love the excitement you put in my life....I could've totaled your car yesterday for one of them...."
Edward brushed a strand of curl she didn't get in to her pony tail off her cheek and brushed it back behind her ear as he kisses her fore head then...."I love you...." He said softly....As he looked at his reflection in the mirror....and saw some thing that just made his skin a lot more white than usual....Bella and Jacob...Together....Her hands all over him...Kissing him passionately. That made Edward so frightened that he pulled away from Brooke and gasped as he backed into a table....But when he looked at the mirror again there was nothing there...
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Post by BROOKE KNIGHT on Oct 19, 2010 1:00:36 GMT -5
Brooke was about to answer him but then he gasped and jumped back. "Why is it everytime we have sex you back away from me like that? Am I the plague or something?" she was rather concerned by it. "Why is it everytime we have a moment like that you think of her?" she knew what it was her, it happened a lot and it often made her jealous despite the fact they were engaged. She turned her back on him and walked away. She shut her eyes and frowned as she folded her arms across her chest. Biting her lips slightly she let more quotes float through her head, this time they were more depressing, works by Sylvia Plath, Edgar Allen Poe, and many other depressing work were there. She couldn't look back at him.
How a night of wonderful sex could turn into a morning that already had her upset amazed her. She was on an emotional rollercoaster when it came to Edward. One moment she wanted him badly and was more than happy to be in his arms but then something like this would happen and she just wanted him to leave so she could process but she always knew if he did leave she would go back to wanting him again. This was getting complicated and even though she knew how badly she needed Edward in her life she sometimes asked herself why she was doing this to herself. Then she remembered how she felt when he wasn't there and she was happy that everything had happened between them.
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Post by edwardcullen on Oct 19, 2010 1:20:18 GMT -5
"Why is it every time we have sex you back away from me like that? Am I the plague or something?" "Why is it every time we have a moment like that you think of her?"
"I...I don't know...But you're not understanding the delicate situation I am in....It started to happen after, I agreed to Aro...I'm sorry...If you need to be alone I'll gladly leave you for a while...."
He was scared that this was gonna make her back out of the engagement....He got up from where he landed and walked over to the door. "I'll go...Apparently she has a stronger hold on me than I thought...." He didn't tell Brooke what happened that last night, he and Bella were indeed together....And grabbed the door handle. What he didn't know about Brooke either was that she was not going to leave him just because he has visions of Bella alone or her with Jacob....He needed more faith in Brooke. After all, they were brought together for a reason. Edward was not going to walk out of her life....He just didn't want to be around her when Bella was on his mind...He knew it made her jealous....Edward knew what jealous did to you. Thanks to Jacob. This was a pointless thought in his head though. He knew of the New Born problem....And he would be focusing on that if he was any where else....But he left his Volturi matters behind the moment he would see her by accident or make plans to meet her. Yes, he knew Aro didn't know about Brooke yet. But, Edward was scared of showing up at the mansion with her arm wrapped around his....He knew that was bound to rouse some conversation....But at this point, Edward didn't care. He was in love with Brooke with all of what was once his heart in his chest. But he loved her none the less....Even leave her to be happy if she wanted him to.....
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Post by BROOKE KNIGHT on Oct 19, 2010 1:42:30 GMT -5
His hand touched the door knob and Brooke's eyes opened the second she hear it. She raised an eyebrow before she ran behind him, touching his hand to stop him. "Don't you dare think for one second that I would EVER consider leaving you. I had a moment of weakness yesterday but we both know that is not how I feel." she told him, "I love you and even though I am not the only woman you think of, even though knowing that kills me, that won't change." she moved in front of him and set a hand on his cheek. "As long as you'll have me I am not going anywhere. No matter how complicated this gets I am staying as long as you want me." She told him. She had to lean up to kiss him, she wasn't wearing heels so her height was 5'4", a huge change from her heeled height of 5'7" to 5'9". Her short height was why she always wore a pair of heels.
Her kiss was gentle and she pulled away and looked him in the eye kindly. "Now please, back away from the door before I have to convince you to." she told him.
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Post by edwardcullen on Oct 19, 2010 17:48:54 GMT -5
"Don't you dare think for one second that I would EVER consider leaving you. I had a moment of weakness yesterday but we both know that is not how I feel." "I love you and even though I am not the only woman you think of, even though knowing that kills me, that won't change."
She stopped him right on time then with her putting her hand on his and releasing it from the door knob. But what she did next was so pleasing he didn't want her to let go of him...She leaned up on her bare toes and kissed him....He closed his eyes as she did that....And sighed out..."Now please, back away from the door before I have to convince you to." He kinda wanted to be convinced....But he kept that to himself....As he backed away from the door...."I hate myself every time she enters my mind....I don't know how to stop it...You know a vampire's emotions are ten times as bad as a humans....She used to tell me it killed every minute she was away from me....But she has no idea how real pain feels...." He wanted to run away and did not want Brooke to see him like this....But she was keeping him grounded. As he backed away some more....There was more sadness in his eyes....He loved Brooke with all the life he has....But he was threatened with the images of Bella in his mind might break her one day and she would leave him because he could not get Bella out of his mind....
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Post by BROOKE KNIGHT on Oct 19, 2010 19:03:02 GMT -5
Brooke listened to him silently, this was hard for him to tell her and she knew that. Without a word she walked over to him and wrapped him in a tight hug, however her much shorter height defeated the purpose of this hug, her head landed on his chest, that tends to happen when you date a guy ten inches taller than you though. "I'm right here. I won't make you feel that pain." she told him.
"Please just let me be here for you. Just let me in." She muttered. "I love you and I want to be here for you but you have to stop rejecting my help. You need to call me when you feel the way you did yesterday. I won't always just happen to be there like I was this time." she semi pleaded with him.
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Post by edwardcullen on Oct 19, 2010 20:16:36 GMT -5
"I'm right here. I won't make you feel that pain." He looked so deeply in her eyes as he wanted to smile...He wanted to believe her so much....But just as it was hard on her to love some one else, it was hard on him as well. He loves her unconditionally, but there was something that would always hold him back....Her.
"Please just let me be here for you. Just let me in." He blinked when she said that....And looked right at her then....As he lowered his head some. She was a bit smaller with out her heels...But that was okay. "I love you and I want to be here for you but you have to stop rejecting my help. You need to call me when you feel the way you did yesterday. I won't always just happen to be there like I was this time." She was pleading with him. Only slightly....But he could sense that. He tensed up as she said what she said. Accepting help was some thing that was hard for him....He didn't think he would have to ask for it considering what he was. He always knew Bella would be the one asking him for it. But this time he needed Brooke's help more than he knew right now...."Okay..." But that response was probably non believable for her....
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Post by BROOKE KNIGHT on Oct 19, 2010 21:05:13 GMT -5
Brooke shut her eyes and shook her head, "Can you please tell me why this is so difficult for us?" she asked him, "We love each other... Yet this is so hard for us to do..." She was clearly upset about all of this. She backed away from him and picked up a pair of purple heels to match her purple sweater. She sat on the edge of the table he had bumped into earlier and slipped them on.
After she had them on however she didn't get up, she just sat there, arms folded as she looked at him. "I am incredibly in love with you... But why can't we do this without it getting this way?" she asked him sadly.
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Post by edwardcullen on Oct 19, 2010 21:25:19 GMT -5
"Can you please tell me why this is so difficult for us?" He looked down then as he shook his head....Like he couldn't answer that.... "We love each other... Yet this is so hard for us to do..." He then shook his head as he closed his eyes...."I am incredibly in love with you... But why can't we do this without it getting this way?"
"I think...We need time away before we go any further." He never looked at her eyes when he said that. He was too sad himself to see her eyes. He knew she was hurting by him telling her this, but he needed time alone. "I'm not going to leave you....Know that. I just....Need some time to think before we go any further....We've gone too far as it is....I'm going too fast with you...Know it's not you.....It's me.....I haven't gotten over....her yet..." He leaned close to her and kissed her cheek softly....As he bent downward and did so...But as he finished he looked back up at her...."I love you....I'll be there if you need me.....I promise...." He then moved to the door away from her again and walked out leaving her alone again. This time he wasn't gonna let her catch him from leaving as he was gone from her in a heart beat. He was not wanting her to follow him and stop him this time....He needed time alone before he decided this was really what he wanted. He probably hurt her....But he was not leaving the states like he did Bella....If she did need him, he would be there.....
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Post by BROOKE KNIGHT on Oct 19, 2010 21:43:01 GMT -5
Brooke was in shock as he spoke. She had never felt this much pain in her life, he must have known what he had done when he said those words. She didn't chase him, she couldn't bring herself to. She just sat there, feeling abandoned, feeling the way she did when she watched her relationship with Luther vanish. Only it was ten times worse. She wouldn't cry even if she could. She was too strong for that, breaking down over a guy was not what she did, even though that was all she wanted to do this time. She felt like there was a lump in her throat, one that wouldn't go away no matter how hard she swallowed.
After several minutes of sitting there she took the heels she had put on off. She stood up and gathered her shopping bags together, pulling out a newly bought pair of sunglasses which she slipped on immediately. She grabbed the clothes she had been wearing the night before and grabbed her purse as well before grabbing her keys off the table.
She swiftly walked to her car, not looking at anyone or anything as she did so. She shoved her bags in the back seat, and with a a single motion had her door shut and keys in the ignition. As soon as the car roared to life Brooke pulled out and was at top speed in a matter of milliseconds. Back towards the dreary town of Forks, Washington she was headed. She slipped off her ring and it was in her purse in an instant, she couldn't stand the sight of it as she drove.
"Just another day, Brooke... No big deal..." She told herself as she drove. She thought about nothing at all as her car sped down streets, she couldn't care right now.
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Post by edwardcullen on Oct 19, 2010 21:50:48 GMT -5
END TIL NEXT THREAD^^
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